Soon or later you have to think about the future, but not tomorrow’s future or even in a year, but about the future for your children, for their well-being. Now I’m at the moment when I can decide where to go, where to live, where to work and finally where to settle. And you know what? That’s a real problem! First of all, it’s not a big surprise that my possibilities are pretty modest and limited. The second, the place where I would like to work, the place where I would like to live and the place where I would like to bring up children are absolutely different places! Just there is nothing common in them! 😀
Personal potential, ambitions and career demand a well-developed big city with a lot of opportunities. For children it’s the best variant as well, because even if it’s too urbanized way to live and be raised, but they will not have a complex of small towns, they will not have a deep desire to move out. Of course, there is nothing bad in it, absolutely; they are free to choose the place, to move in search of happiness and self-realization. But it’s another story,
At the same time my soul and heart want to be in a calm place, somewhere amongst Ireland landscapes or on the Island, where are only the sun, the sea, greens and trees, and small house, of course, or maybe even not so small 😀 Yes, it’s an «idiot’s dream», I know. And moreover it’s not inherent to me, because I hate to be lazy, I constantly need to do something, especially to work, but maybe because I work too much, I want to taste this life. I don’t know. As well as I don’t know where to go and what to follow: my heart or my brain. Once, our teacher said about «kokoro», what could be translated or adapted (more or less) like «clever heart» and sometimes I envy (in a good sense) the one, who has it or who was able to achieve this condition.